everything is so overwhelming and sometimes my head hurts so bad from overthinking so much i remember how much of a disappointment i am and my whole heart and chest literally starts paining me and they most annoying of all is that i cant let it out , i cant even cry because i have to be strong and not show that i am weak and vulnerable. it is all trapped inside and there is no way to let it out. i thought for a particular that the depression has gone but in reality it was just staying low key because i was busy.