i never had a good friend. All were just for name and never treated me as a friend. I have eagerness and confidence to talk to anyone but i think a lot about what the other person thinks about me. I meani think a lot. I kind of have fear to face multiple people at a time. Main thing is that, a year and half ago, i left my house for study for coaching of jee exam and live alone in a pg(paying guest apartment). My parents paid around 6 lakh rupees for my two year study. And their monthly income is around 55,000 rupees. I live in Pune( maharashtra, india )with family but parents send me to kota(rajasthan, india) For studies. I am alone here. I have teens of my age here but they are in their groups and i never find it easy to approach them. They kind of make fun of me behind my back. So this was the environment for these past year and a half days. So i used to attend every class and used to study good. But i made no friends in coaching and pg . I started to fall apart and started Missing classes. I used to punch my attendance card and come home and just watch videos on youtube or watch movies. For these past days, i have not studied anything and the jee exam is in 13 days. I know nothing of the syllabus. I also have my 12 th std exam with it. I also haven't studied for it. I just need another chance. One more year, for again studying and doing my best. But my dad is really angry person. He used to beat me a lot. I fear what he will do after knowing that i have wasted all money and done nothing. I just need another chance. I feel like commiting suicide. I don't know what to do. I can't face my father. Also i have a lot of pressure of my relatives and all the people of our society. They will basically make fun of me and my family for wasting so much money on me. I can't face all this. I want to stay for another year here in kota city and complete my studies. I think of doing a data entry job here online via cyber cafe and pay for the next year if parents give me a chance. I only have a smart phone with me which i bought with savings from money when i got every month while in kota city. Pls help me. I can't talk to anyone. I have a lot of pressure. My mom calls me everyday and asks about how's my study going on? I I'm all broken from inside.