i dont have much interest in the balloons themselves but i want women to sit on them and try to pop them with their weight.  shifting their weight around or bouncing stepping on them and to become surprized when they dont pop.  something about the expectation in her mind that will pop but being happy that its just soft and bouncy instead.  i understand it doesnt hurt aything but it interferes with my life all day every day and always makes it awkward when i meet women because i have no interest in sex, i just want them to remain fully clothed and find inventive ways to put their weight on balloons until they pop.  i know i am not the only one who thinks about this, just look on youtube, you see hundreds of videos of women sitting on balloons.  i just think i am one who obsesses a bit much about it.  although its all ive evver wanted since i was a kid, i want to be done with it because its just too frustrating every day.  noone i tell about it understands how i feel and it just seems silly.  i understand it is silly.  but when that urge hits me, i can hardly control it.  i wait til i get home, blow up a bunch of balloons and step or sit on them and bounce, get off and back on them again feeling them flatten out until they finally stretch as far as they can and pop.  but that whole time, i'm wishing it was a woman doing that.  me doing it is not what i want.  i do it just to prove to myself that a woman could do it. maybe i will either find someone who is interested or finally make it go away.