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heaven
13 May 2016 09:47
hey I think I have bpd, but I'm not quite sure. I was sexually abused as a child and have hardships since then with anxiety, depprsion and paronia. I have the feeling of emptiness and I am often angry and feel that I have no control over these feelings.
I used to think of killing myself, but stopped doing it because I really wanted to live. for a period i was bing eating, but now I'm nauseous every day and i eat maybe one or two meals everyday. I have problems understanding who I am and what I feel. I dont know whether I am good or evil . i have tried to find out who I rellly am, but I have become too tired to think because is exhausting. I am very afraid of being left alone by those I love but I hate to feel weak so I would not have asked people not to leave me even if it kills me inside. i have given up the ide of marry. I change what I'm thinking about other people from being good to being evil quite sudden. no one knows how much I am suffering and my family often say that I'm evil and other things that hurt me. they love me, but they can can be bad sometimes. I tend to either be angry or hyper happy at home and at school I am alone and have no friends. when my best friend moved after a friendship of seven years I have not had a friend since then and i am afride to make one. i often got punished by my parents for being angry and my siblling where sometime bad to me. i know that they love me but they shouldt treat me like that even if they dont know how sick i am. i can not seek pyskolog, becasue i dont want them to finde out and i also feel week if they feel bad for me something that i relly hate. insted i want that they think about me as a angry, bad girl that they think i am do I have bpd or anything else.? |
Adjustment Disorder
Anxiety
ADHD
Autism Spectrum
Borderline Personality
Bulemia
Depression
Dissociative Fugue
Dysthymia
Exhibitionism
Female Sexual Arousal
Fetishism
Hypoactive Sexual Desire
Kleptomania
Learning Disorder of Math
Mania and Bi-Polar
Narcissistic Personality
Oppositional Defiant
Pica
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
Premature Ejaculation
Pyromania
Stress
Substance Abuse
Substance Dependency
Somatic Symptom
Schizotypal Personality
Tourette
Anorexia
Antisocial Personality
Avoidant Personality
Agoraphobia
Body Dysmorphic
Conduct Disorder
Dependent Personality
Depersonalization
Dyspareunia
Expressive Language Disorder
Frotteurism
Histrionic Personality
Intermittent Explosive
Learning Disorder of Written Expression
Learning Disorder of Reading
Masochism
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Pedophilia
Paraphilia
Penetration Disorder
Paranoid Personality
Rumination
Schizophrenia
Sadism
Schizoid Personality
Stuttering
Trichotillomania
Voyeurism
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Brad 14 May 2016 01:18