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15 Jul 2016 01:33
I used to be anorexic. It's hard for me to say because I refuse to believe it, but it's true. I wouldn't eat. One meal every two days. Which is better than what it could've been. But that lead to depression and self harm. It's been about a year and a half now since I've cut:) and I'm afraid that I'm starting to vomit after eating to be pretty again, which could lead to me depression. But that's not it, my anxiety levels are through the roof. I feel like everyone's always scrutinizing every movie I make, saying I'm fat, there's no way she can be an athlete, she's to fat to even walk around the feild, etc. I can't take it. I'm always so anxious and I used to never feel this way. I feel like I don't know myself anymore. I'm always crying and looking at myself in the mirror like I'm some stranger. Because recently I feel like all my friends agree with me. I've been acting different, and I don't know why or how. But I hate who I've become. And I can't take it. I just hate who I am, my body. I just want life to come easy again. When school work and the people in it didn't drag me down.
You see, I'm not the smartest girl. So once phill find out I'm insane, mentally impaired, psychotic, etc. They'll all do what they always do, label me, bully me, etc. As if I don't hate this enough. So I don't want help. But I need it. And no my parents can't find out, because I don't want them treating me differently because I'm "fragile." |
Adjustment Disorder
Anxiety
ADHD
Autism Spectrum
Borderline Personality
Bulemia
Depression
Dissociative Fugue
Dysthymia
Exhibitionism
Female Sexual Arousal
Fetishism
Hypoactive Sexual Desire
Kleptomania
Learning Disorder of Math
Mania and Bi-Polar
Narcissistic Personality
Oppositional Defiant
Pica
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
Premature Ejaculation
Pyromania
Stress
Substance Abuse
Substance Dependency
Somatic Symptom
Schizotypal Personality
Tourette
Anorexia
Antisocial Personality
Avoidant Personality
Agoraphobia
Body Dysmorphic
Conduct Disorder
Dependent Personality
Depersonalization
Dyspareunia
Expressive Language Disorder
Frotteurism
Histrionic Personality
Intermittent Explosive
Learning Disorder of Written Expression
Learning Disorder of Reading
Masochism
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Pedophilia
Paraphilia
Penetration Disorder
Paranoid Personality
Rumination
Schizophrenia
Sadism
Schizoid Personality
Stuttering
Trichotillomania
Voyeurism
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Brad [ moderator ] 16 Jul 2016 18:16